It's going to be one and a half months since I've been in Philly. Think I'm starting to get accustomed to the place and the cold. I still miss home though - i miss the familiarity, i miss the lah-s and the lor-s and of course, the food.

Well, I'm slowly discovering what life has to offer here but it's just different. Sometimes, you really feel like that big solid tree at one moment - Then, in the next fleeting instance, you feel humiliated, you feel so small, you feel like crap.. because someone just decides to piss on you. Think I've been getting too many of the latter.

heavenknows

1:18 AM

heavenknows

1:26 PM

The Broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart
That's still breating
In the pain
Is there healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what, you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on, to the words you say
You said that I will, will be okay

The broken lights on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
But I haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
Barely holding on to you

heavenknows

3:18 AM

You Are An INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards. You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings. At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist. How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak

heavenknows

4:27 AM

finally... the rag shield is back in Eusoff!

heavenknows

2:06 AM

For Zai Zai!





Zai Zai, you like?

heavenknows

6:45 PM

my Soul has officially sunk.

heavenknows

3:30 AM

我 一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐
像绿洲给了沙漠

说 你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀让我飞
也有回去的窝

我愿意 我也可以
付出一切也不会可惜
就在一起 看时间流逝
要记得我们相爱的方式

就是爱你 爱着你有悲有喜
有你平淡也有了意义
就是爱你 爱着你甜蜜又安心
那种感觉就是你

我愿意 真的愿意
付出所有也要保护你
在一起 时间继续流逝
请记得我有多么的爱你

就是爱你 爱着你不弃不离
不在意 一路有多少风雨
就是爱你 爱着你放在你手心
灿烂的幸福全给你

就是爱你 爱着你我都愿意
就是爱你 爱着你要我们在一起

heavenknows

6:27 PM

For all I've been blessed with in this life
There was an emptiness in me
I was imprisoned by the power of gold
With one honest touch you set me free

For every mountain I have climbed
And ever raging river crossed
You were the treasure that I longed to find
Without you love I would be lost

Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true

In this life, I was loved by you.

heavenknows

9:31 AM

I just finished studying for EL2101. I'm almost a day late - a day behind "the schedule". Guess I'm mildly contented. But I've still got UPC2201 and UNL2204 to study for - 2 science modules. What makes me think I can actually finish studying them.

How can I ever be so sure of myself?

Then, what's this lie that I'm living? If i'm truely contented, why is my heart always pacing so fast now when I think about what I have done? Why am I deceiving myself, hiding behind a warped sense of accomplishment and satisfaction amidst emptiness?

I'm glad you're happy. I really really am.

But I'll be lying to myself if I said I didn't miss you.

heavenknows

6:25 PM